what to do with this amazing and wonderful inspired feeling i have before i lose it???

good question.

i'd recommend canning these inspired bursts, this way you can eat them up when you feel all bugaboo creatively or just as a snack in the middle of a mild depressive state.

easier said than done, kiddo.

it's hot. i got a haircut on saturday, but sometimes i feel like i should have kept it longer, thus handing me a forehead mop when the air you walk through weighs 87 lbs.

i've become a daysleeper for the most part.

i work until 1am most nights and get home too wound up to fall asleep. sex and weed used to clear my head out really well, but now i find that the sexual acts merely get rid of one of the sources of frustration, the weed just fogs up the rest. i lay on the couch in a catatonic state, processing commercials (there;s a new hummer ad with a man buying vegetables and tofu and another man buying pounds and pounds of good ol' american red meat. the tofu guy freaks a little, but then he sees an ad for a hummer. he buys one. the tag line? RESTORE YOUR MANHOOD. it has since been changed to RESTORE THE BALANCE) and watching poor programming.

i think what i keep wanting is for either a) to experience zero gravity for at least ten minutes or b) to experience gravity times ten for 10 seconds.

i'm tired of the inbetweens.