Asleep
is what i should be
but i am not
because i never am
at this hour of night

i should just accept that i am nocturnal - i should embrace my nighttime personality - i should stop taking homeopathics prescribed by my naturopath - stop drinking tea - stop all the things i try to do to 'try to fall asleep' and just let it all go - whats the worst that could happen - i stay up late - and wake up late??

whats wrong with that??

good question diana

what is wrong with that?

hmmm lets see

everything in the world wants me to go to sleep now

i cant go to the bank - or the post office - or buy someone a birthday present or do much of anything useful that involves the world -

i can completely isolate myself and do all my phd work in the middle of the night when everyone is alseep - i can stay awake in my partners living room all night blogging about not sleeping -

the top ten things keeping me awake right now
10 - thinking about the world
9 - thinking about the day
8 - thinking in general
7 - my restless need to always be running around like a lunatic
6 - everything fun happens at night and i dont want to sleep through it
5 - thinking about tomorrow
4 - lack of any schedule for the past 3 years
3 - my brain
2 - i woke up at 11
1 - sleep is for suckers

you awake t dog?? i wonder where you are?

everything's coming up roses.