oh my beloved terence.... an existential crisis on the go.... i totally hear you - i am completely freaked these days.... been having crazy episodes... which makes me happy that i am spending the weekend on a farm.... i can use some peace and quiet...maybe we need to have these freak outs to help us figure shit out... cause i am in this mode where i am 'supposed' to be figuring out what to do with my life... and this degree... and where to live... and all that... but mostly i get caught up in living everyday because thats what we do... we live everyday....we eat... we talk to people... we work.... we take showers... we made dinner... and where is the thinking time....where is the figuring out time.... i can only slip in freak out time here and there....

i am virtually hugging you terence... and i will be thinking about you while i am on the farm.... and while i am meditating on the farm... hopefully it will be so peaceful and rejuvinating that i will come back and life will make a lick of sense....

if not at least i will have fun pictures....

love you t!